"I Never"
I never thought I could go on living when you
died, but I did.
I never thought I would survive after burying
you, but I did. I never thought I'd get through those first days, weeks, and months, but I did.
I never thought I'd be able to endure the first
anniversary of your death, but I did.
I never thought I'd let myself love my new grandchild,
but I have.
I never thought tomorrow would be different,
but it was.
I never though I'd stop crying for a day, but
I have.
I never thought I'd sing again, but I have.
I never thought the pain would "soften" but
it has.
I never thought I'd care if the sun shone
again, but Ido.
I never thought I'd ever entertain again, but
I have.
I never thought I'd be able to control my grief,
but I can.
I never thought I could function without
medication again, but I can.
I never thought I'd smile again, but I do.
I never thought I'd laugh out loud again, but
I do.
I never thought I'd look forward to tomorrow,
but I do.
I never thought I'd reconcile your death,
but I have.
I never thought I'd be able to create that "new
normal" ,but I have.
I never thought I'd want to go on living after
you died, but I do.
Always missing you, always loving you, and thinking
of you daily with a smile on my face and tears on my heart.
Author Unknown